...pondered potentials on the bus

so i find myself often playing along with boys that im not necessarily that interested in. texting them and tentatively discussing future plans, like meeting up later that night or another day. i love having a list of boys i can text or that are texting me. most of these boys are solid back ups. but rarely get to the top of my to do list. i meet new people who become priorities.. it might seem like i am letting a few boys who wouldnt otherwise stand a chance with me, get to play with me and think they are getting their way with me. but the reality is that i need their attention to bulk out list of potentials and keep my mind occupied. and these boys are chasers. that is another reason most will never rise to the top of the list. the make me feel good with their attention, but i dont generally hook up with chasers. if i dont want you immediately, chances are i never will. and pestering about that will just put me off. i dont really have a fnal point to make. was just sitting here on the bus thinking about it as i was texting a boy i kissed last night about how i was gonna meet him later tonight. ill probably be busy. i have two people above him on todays to do list. now that decision will be hard when it comes to it. the virgin or the smooth, confident, new 18 yr old. im quite a fan of letting fate take its path. so when i have a few lined up there will usually be a natural conclusion where fate aligns and leaves me with only option. there was a night when this didnt happen. i will tell you about that one day and how i pissed of a whole bunch of boys in one move.

...took and 18 year olds virginity

a couple of nights ago i saw a boy out. he stood out. that is how i find all my boys. they just stand out to me. he was clearly very young an shy. we spent most of the night looking at each other with neither of us doing anything. i came over all 16 and shy and couldnt go talk to him, so in the end my mate got bored and went over and got him and handed him over to me. he asked how old  i was, i thought it was wise to ask him first, he replied 18 so i said, lets just say im 21. we talked very briefly before we made out. then we kinda just stood there. we didnt have much to say so i suggested we go outside to smoke. we sat on some stairs and ended up chatting for like half an hour. as the conversation was dying off, i said we should go back in somewhere. i had been talking about how i wanted to be a stripper, and we were sat opposite a strip club, so he said we should go in there. inside i sat on his lap while we watched the girls and chatted about them. he had his hands all over my legs and i was leaning back against his chest. i was so horny watching the girls with his hands on me and couldnt wait to get out of there. when we eventually left he very confidently said we should go back to mine. i live in an amazing apartment with a stunning view so we went up and sat on my balcony for a while chatting some more. we went into my bedroom and he sat on my bed, i sat down next to him and we started making out. he was a bit of a tentative kisser and seemed a little restrained. he put his hand between my thighs and started rubbing my pussy. his hand felt so good. firm but not rough. he pulled his jeans down and released his cock and i ran my hand down over his chest and hard stomach till i had my hand wrapped around him. i sat up and started kissing his chest and working my way down, and he was like, erm, ye i think i have a condom, i told him i didnt need it yet, but he kind of sat up and said he needed to tell me something. he said he hadnt done this before and that he was a virgin. i asked him if he was sure he wanted to do this and told him he didnt have to, but he was like, oh hell ye i want to. so , i pushed him back down on the bed, i was even more turned on than before and determined to make this the best experience possible. i pulled his jeans off and go on my knees between his thighs. i started tickling his balls with my tongue before i worked my way up the shaft and took him in my mouth. his penis was a great size and i found i could deep throat him perfectly. i even managed to tickle his balls with my tongue while i did it. i worked on his penis for a while. he just kept saying oh god, giggling a little bit and covering his face with his hands. it was so cute. he asked how i was so good at it and i looked up at him and with a mouth half full of cock, told him that it was cause i love it. i love cock in and around my face. it was pretty funny. he appreciated it. by now my pussy was so wet and i was so excited to finally fuck him, i slipped the condom on with my mouth and worked my way back up his body.he looked up at me and said dont be mad at him if he cums really quick or is rubbish. i kissed him and told him it didnt matter and i like it when boys cum quick as its a compliment.  i straddled him and gently positioned his cock and the entrance to my pussy.  i slowly pushed him inside me, just a little bit, then back out, then in again and back out, i did this a couple more times while he looked down watching the tip of his cock disappear inside me. then in one move i slid all the way down on him and he gasped. i started fucking him gently, slowly building up a rhythm and speed. he lay back, watching me, his hands on my ass, tits or in my hair. i worked him hard for quite a while before i told him it was his turn to fuck me. he rolled me over onto my back and watching him above me, his baby face and hard, muscly body, concentrating on sliding his cock inside me was so hot. he was a natural. he fucked me so well. he really was the best i have had for at least a week or two. he complained that his abs were killing him fucking me and i laughed saying fucking was really hard work. i got him to fuck me from behind and that was amazing, i was so close to cumming. which without a toy, with a new boy, is very rare. he wanted me on top again, so obliged, fucking him hard and fast, sitting up so he could watch me an play with my tits. we had been fucking for a good 15 minutes before he finally came and he slipped out of me. he just sat there, looked at me and asked what now. it was so cute. he didnterm, ye i think ill go with three. we lay in bed chatting more and i started tickling him, stroking his chest and sides. it wasnt long before we were both back at it. i sucked his cock for ages and he lost his shit over it. i asked if he wanted me to keep doing that or if he wanted to fuck me again. he chose well and we had some awesome sex. i thought id take him further and when he was fucking me from behind i reached over and grabbed my vibrator and pushed it onto my clit. i came hard and fast and he flipped me over onto my back and got my legs up on his shoulders and drove his cock in my sopping pussy while i kept the vibrator on my clit again, sending me into another orgasm. he lasted about thirty minutes this time. he really blew my mind. when he eventually came we were exhausted and it was 7am. he said he would leave me to sleep and he was gonna go back to his hotel and shower and stay up. i gave him my number and told him to call me if he wanted to do this more before he left. he text me last night. and we are gonna meet tonight. i am so horny now after writing this and thinking about him. there is absolutely nothing wrong with 18 year olds and youth does not mean they dont know what they are doing, even if they havent done it before. some boys are clearly just naturally very good at sex. and i picked a great one.

...left town

last week i left the town i had been living in for the past 4 months. i had a long list of people i wanted to do before i left and had planned on several nights of gangbangs in order to get them done. obviously you cant plan these things and had also found a boy who i was having such good sex with, i didnt wanna bother with anyone else. until my last night there. after a night spent dancing on a podium, i wandered down to the beach with a few mates and a boy i had been building up to fucking for two months. i hadnt swam naked at night the whole time id been there so it was my mission to do it on the last night. me and the boy, 175, got down to our pants and went in the water. my other 3 mates stayed on the beach and chatted and watched us, taking photos. his cock was hard despite the cold and we started kissing. he slid his hands down my body over my nipples that were rock hard and on to my pussy. after two months of waiting, i pulled his cock out his shorts and wrapped my hand round it, stroking him and kissing him. i sat down in the water and he stood over me and i took him in my mouth and sucked his cock for a little bit. then he pulled me deeper in the water and finally fucked me. it was surprisingly hard to fuck while floating about in the water. and our friends were still watching and taking photos. so it was a bit weird. and it was so cold. we decided to get out and go back to his hostel. the pool at his place was a bit warmer, so we spent a good hour in the water and on the side with his cock in my mouth and pussy. it was really fun but hard to get a good rhythm in the water.

earlier in the night i had met another guy, 176, who i had wanted to fuck for a couple of weeks. he was really hot in a tall, tanned, tattooed, pierced, australian, singlet and skinny jeans wearing way, so, my type. we had swapped numbers so i could meet up with him later in the night. while i was with 175, he kept calling me and texting me to go over to his. he was having a bit of a party and as it was my last night, i was keen to have more fun. 175 apparently takes ages to cum, and by now we had been at it for an hour an half and i was cold and thinking about 176. i told 175 i had to go to this party and he knew i had to leave for the airport in 3 hours so understood. it was a shame cause i had wanted him so much for so long. but my priorities for my last night was just to have a crazy time. so i ran out the hostel at 5am into a taxi to take me out to the suburbs to a random house to meet this other guy. when i got there he was hanging out with a mate, they were both so high. after about 2 mins he was like, erm, i think you need to be naked now. i was thinking there would be some 3some times, but he asked his mate for a blanket and hid us under there while he rubbed my pussy and made me take my clothes off. he was telling me to get his cock hard so i slid under the blanket and sucked his cock. he was so high tho it was hard to get anything out of him. he tried to fuck me, but there wasnt much to work with. i could tell normally he would have a great big cock, but all the drugs he had taken had an adverse effect. we went into the bathroom so we could try properly. he was begging me to get his cock hard and talk dirty to him. he was such a mess it just wasnt hot. i tried to a bit, but had little patience and told him i was done. he then begged me to let him play with me. he was very rough and i wasnt really enjoying it. he got on the bathroom floor and i straddled his face while he ate my pussy. he was good at that. and i enjoyed that for a while. but it was getting late. i knew i had to get home to finish packing and that was more on my mind than what he was up to down there. i told him i needed to go and that one day if im ever back in town and he isnt high then we can do this properly. we made out a bit while i waited for a taxi and rode off back to my apartment at 7am. i managed to get packed and get in a taxi in time for my flight. i was glad i had done both of my last night boys but wish either of them had been a bit more resolved.

...got walked out on

so friday night i met a dude. he was hot, in a hipster way. an aussie model. anyway, i took him back to mine and he was a little awkward. it had taken hours of us talking in the first place to make out and get him to mine anyway.  we kissed a bit and he quickly got my top and bra off. i was laying on my back and he just started jiggling my tits. it was so wierd. it was like he had never seen or touched boobs before and was exploring how they move. after doing that for a bit he stradled my chest and tried to squeeze my boobs around his cock. in the position we were in it wasnt really possible so i took him in my mouth. he had quite a good cock, good lengh and rock solid. i pushed him on his back and started my best work with mouth. but after a few minutes he pushed me up, said stop and started pulling up his shorts. he jumped off the bed saying he cant do this. he was really sorry and said he knew it was a wierd thing for a dude to do, but that he had to leave. i just lay there an told him no worries. he told me to text him the next day and he would see me then. i made a mental note to make sure i did not do that and then he walked out.  i was a lil frustrated and apart from being pretty confused, which i still am, had a good nights sleep. it might seem particularly wierd but this, as you will find out, is not the first time i have been walked out on recently.

...started internet dating again

so ive browsed my old favorite "dating" site since ive been hhere in aus but have not really felt the need or urge to follow through with any potentials. however, spending almost 2 weeks in bed pts a different outlook on things. i met 170 on the site about a week ago. i put him off the first few nights he wanted to meet as i was still a mess and not really up to it. after a failed night on fun on wednesday i decided i had to meet him on thursday night. he was going out and after i had finished on cam, first night back after the crash, i was a lil tired. i couldnt be bothered to sit and wait for him so went to bed. he called at 1.30am and woke me up. i didnt answer his first few calls cause i was a lil pissed off he left it so late. however in the end i answered. he has a really sexy voice and was trying to convince me it woul be a good idea to wake up and have him over. i was not convinced and we ended the conversation saying we will do it another night. by this point i was much more awake an after a couple of minutes thought, changed my mind and text him to tell him ill sleep when im dead and come over and fuck me. he was there within ten minutes. he wanst as cute as some of his pictures but by this point i hadnt had sex in a week an half. i didnt care. we made out a bit and pretty soon he was kneeling over my chest with his cock in my mouth while we watched in the mirror.  he was pulling on my hair and forcing his cock down my throat. his penis wasnt too big so i could take it all. he was desperate to just throw me around and fuck me hard but my foot and leg injuries were slowing me down. we ended up have fast, hard sex with my legs up on his shoulders and him kneeling up. the bed slid accross the room and my top half was hanging off the bed as he pulled his cock out of me and came all over my stomach and tits. he even got a good shot in my hair and over me onto the head board. i wiped myself up with a towel and we quickly fell asleep a he had to be up and leave in 3 hours for work.