...took three loads

in the spirit of new motivation i thought id start by telling you about last night. ive even sat at a desk to write.

i met this boy yesterday, 192, and made out with him, then bumped into him when i was on my way home. him and his mates were goin home my way so we decided to walk together. 192 and i were together and we were kissing and holding hands. when we got like 1/3 of the way home we were bored of walking and they decided to get a taxi back to theirs and asked me to come along. i decided to go, but turns out they didnt live where i did but were stayin at a hotel about half an hour in a taxi away. i was a little pissed off, but this did not compare to how pissed off i was after i got to his "apartment" that actually turned out to be a tiny twin hotel room with 5 boys staying in it. 192 took me into the bathroom and we quickly got naked. we me sat on he toilet he stood in front of me and i took his big cock in my mouth. he lay on the bathroom floor, and i bounced up and down on his cock, holding on to the sink and the door handle, before he stood me up and bent me over he toilet and fucked me from behind. i cant remember how it came about but he asked if i wanted to go out in the bedroom and fuck all of the boys. i had met two of them, but the other two were already in bed when i got there, so was a little hesitant. anyway i decided fuck it, i might as well. we went into the bedroom and 192 told them id fuck all of them. 193 came up to me and got his cock out while 192 started fucking me from behind, bent over the bed. neither of them could maintain much hard cock while their mates were watching, so i turned to 194 who was lying there with a massive hard cock with a condom already on. i sucked his cock for a little bit and then decided to make the most of it and climbed on top and rode him. 193 was filming me from behind and 192 got on the bed and stood over 194 in front of me and stuck his cock back in my mouth. after a little while, having his mates arse in his face put 194 off from fucking me so i got up and went in the bathroom again with 192. he sat on the toilet and and i was sucking his cock bent over, when someone came in and started fucking me from behind. this time they were both very hard and it was so good being fucked hard at both ends by two big, hard cocks. pretty soon 192 came in my mouth and left me and 194 in the bathroom. he then sat on the toilet and i got on my knees between his legs and sucked his cock hard and fast for what seemed like an eternity. he kept saying, faster, faster, but that was pretty much an impossibility, so i let him finish off, wanking his cock into my mouth. it kind of pisses me off when a guy takes ages to cum, especially when i am working really hard with my mouth, so when 193 came in to fuck me, i appologised and said i needed a break. i wanted to go get some food and ciggaretes. he came with me and when we got outside i realised i just wanted to go home. i had barely any money, but found a bus that took me right home. i felt bad that 193 didnt get to cum so i decided to give him a blow job right there on the bench while we waited for the bus. he played with my pussy while i bent over into his lap and sucked him hard and deep. only one car came past while we were doing it and like a good boy, he came very quickly in my mouth. a couple of minutes later the bus arrived and i told him to appoligise to the others that i was running off, but didnt like being so far from my own bed with nowhere to really sleep. 192 has been texting me today and they want to meet today, but the shine has gone from those boys. they all looked much cuter when i met them than when i left. but i think that was the first time i took 3 different loads in my mouth in row.

...started a plan

i am feeling very motivated, if a little tired right now. just spent the day with my flatmate and two girls and ended up sitting and pretty much being interviewed by them about my sex life and attitude towards sex. and now i am thinking this year i am going to do something about this. i am led to believe, from many people, that the way i am, the way i approach sex and men and conduct myself and buisness is very unique and i want to capitalise on this. i want to write more and explore ways i can get my story out there. my whole life has been pretty unique and have done and been part of things that dont happen to most people. i love my attitude to sex and men and want to find a way to make this public and profitable as well as interesting and empowering for other people. i had a stint, in my early twenties as a new wave feminist and was set on creating a new kind of feminism, drawn from my own experience and attitude. in this motivated state, i am ready to give something a go. i know this is all very vague, but wanted to get this out there and wanted to make sure i start writing here more. this needs to be my home, my first port of call when something happens or when i think of something related to this venture. i am starting a plan.

...pondered potentials on the bus

so i find myself often playing along with boys that im not necessarily that interested in. texting them and tentatively discussing future plans, like meeting up later that night or another day. i love having a list of boys i can text or that are texting me. most of these boys are solid back ups. but rarely get to the top of my to do list. i meet new people who become priorities.. it might seem like i am letting a few boys who wouldnt otherwise stand a chance with me, get to play with me and think they are getting their way with me. but the reality is that i need their attention to bulk out list of potentials and keep my mind occupied. and these boys are chasers. that is another reason most will never rise to the top of the list. the make me feel good with their attention, but i dont generally hook up with chasers. if i dont want you immediately, chances are i never will. and pestering about that will just put me off. i dont really have a fnal point to make. was just sitting here on the bus thinking about it as i was texting a boy i kissed last night about how i was gonna meet him later tonight. ill probably be busy. i have two people above him on todays to do list. now that decision will be hard when it comes to it. the virgin or the smooth, confident, new 18 yr old. im quite a fan of letting fate take its path. so when i have a few lined up there will usually be a natural conclusion where fate aligns and leaves me with only option. there was a night when this didnt happen. i will tell you about that one day and how i pissed of a whole bunch of boys in one move.

...took and 18 year olds virginity

a couple of nights ago i saw a boy out. he stood out. that is how i find all my boys. they just stand out to me. he was clearly very young an shy. we spent most of the night looking at each other with neither of us doing anything. i came over all 16 and shy and couldnt go talk to him, so in the end my mate got bored and went over and got him and handed him over to me. he asked how old  i was, i thought it was wise to ask him first, he replied 18 so i said, lets just say im 21. we talked very briefly before we made out. then we kinda just stood there. we didnt have much to say so i suggested we go outside to smoke. we sat on some stairs and ended up chatting for like half an hour. as the conversation was dying off, i said we should go back in somewhere. i had been talking about how i wanted to be a stripper, and we were sat opposite a strip club, so he said we should go in there. inside i sat on his lap while we watched the girls and chatted about them. he had his hands all over my legs and i was leaning back against his chest. i was so horny watching the girls with his hands on me and couldnt wait to get out of there. when we eventually left he very confidently said we should go back to mine. i live in an amazing apartment with a stunning view so we went up and sat on my balcony for a while chatting some more. we went into my bedroom and he sat on my bed, i sat down next to him and we started making out. he was a bit of a tentative kisser and seemed a little restrained. he put his hand between my thighs and started rubbing my pussy. his hand felt so good. firm but not rough. he pulled his jeans down and released his cock and i ran my hand down over his chest and hard stomach till i had my hand wrapped around him. i sat up and started kissing his chest and working my way down, and he was like, erm, ye i think i have a condom, i told him i didnt need it yet, but he kind of sat up and said he needed to tell me something. he said he hadnt done this before and that he was a virgin. i asked him if he was sure he wanted to do this and told him he didnt have to, but he was like, oh hell ye i want to. so , i pushed him back down on the bed, i was even more turned on than before and determined to make this the best experience possible. i pulled his jeans off and go on my knees between his thighs. i started tickling his balls with my tongue before i worked my way up the shaft and took him in my mouth. his penis was a great size and i found i could deep throat him perfectly. i even managed to tickle his balls with my tongue while i did it. i worked on his penis for a while. he just kept saying oh god, giggling a little bit and covering his face with his hands. it was so cute. he asked how i was so good at it and i looked up at him and with a mouth half full of cock, told him that it was cause i love it. i love cock in and around my face. it was pretty funny. he appreciated it. by now my pussy was so wet and i was so excited to finally fuck him, i slipped the condom on with my mouth and worked my way back up his body.he looked up at me and said dont be mad at him if he cums really quick or is rubbish. i kissed him and told him it didnt matter and i like it when boys cum quick as its a compliment.  i straddled him and gently positioned his cock and the entrance to my pussy.  i slowly pushed him inside me, just a little bit, then back out, then in again and back out, i did this a couple more times while he looked down watching the tip of his cock disappear inside me. then in one move i slid all the way down on him and he gasped. i started fucking him gently, slowly building up a rhythm and speed. he lay back, watching me, his hands on my ass, tits or in my hair. i worked him hard for quite a while before i told him it was his turn to fuck me. he rolled me over onto my back and watching him above me, his baby face and hard, muscly body, concentrating on sliding his cock inside me was so hot. he was a natural. he fucked me so well. he really was the best i have had for at least a week or two. he complained that his abs were killing him fucking me and i laughed saying fucking was really hard work. i got him to fuck me from behind and that was amazing, i was so close to cumming. which without a toy, with a new boy, is very rare. he wanted me on top again, so obliged, fucking him hard and fast, sitting up so he could watch me an play with my tits. we had been fucking for a good 15 minutes before he finally came and he slipped out of me. he just sat there, looked at me and asked what now. it was so cute. he didnterm, ye i think ill go with three. we lay in bed chatting more and i started tickling him, stroking his chest and sides. it wasnt long before we were both back at it. i sucked his cock for ages and he lost his shit over it. i asked if he wanted me to keep doing that or if he wanted to fuck me again. he chose well and we had some awesome sex. i thought id take him further and when he was fucking me from behind i reached over and grabbed my vibrator and pushed it onto my clit. i came hard and fast and he flipped me over onto my back and got my legs up on his shoulders and drove his cock in my sopping pussy while i kept the vibrator on my clit again, sending me into another orgasm. he lasted about thirty minutes this time. he really blew my mind. when he eventually came we were exhausted and it was 7am. he said he would leave me to sleep and he was gonna go back to his hotel and shower and stay up. i gave him my number and told him to call me if he wanted to do this more before he left. he text me last night. and we are gonna meet tonight. i am so horny now after writing this and thinking about him. there is absolutely nothing wrong with 18 year olds and youth does not mean they dont know what they are doing, even if they havent done it before. some boys are clearly just naturally very good at sex. and i picked a great one.

...left town

last week i left the town i had been living in for the past 4 months. i had a long list of people i wanted to do before i left and had planned on several nights of gangbangs in order to get them done. obviously you cant plan these things and had also found a boy who i was having such good sex with, i didnt wanna bother with anyone else. until my last night there. after a night spent dancing on a podium, i wandered down to the beach with a few mates and a boy i had been building up to fucking for two months. i hadnt swam naked at night the whole time id been there so it was my mission to do it on the last night. me and the boy, 175, got down to our pants and went in the water. my other 3 mates stayed on the beach and chatted and watched us, taking photos. his cock was hard despite the cold and we started kissing. he slid his hands down my body over my nipples that were rock hard and on to my pussy. after two months of waiting, i pulled his cock out his shorts and wrapped my hand round it, stroking him and kissing him. i sat down in the water and he stood over me and i took him in my mouth and sucked his cock for a little bit. then he pulled me deeper in the water and finally fucked me. it was surprisingly hard to fuck while floating about in the water. and our friends were still watching and taking photos. so it was a bit weird. and it was so cold. we decided to get out and go back to his hostel. the pool at his place was a bit warmer, so we spent a good hour in the water and on the side with his cock in my mouth and pussy. it was really fun but hard to get a good rhythm in the water.

earlier in the night i had met another guy, 176, who i had wanted to fuck for a couple of weeks. he was really hot in a tall, tanned, tattooed, pierced, australian, singlet and skinny jeans wearing way, so, my type. we had swapped numbers so i could meet up with him later in the night. while i was with 175, he kept calling me and texting me to go over to his. he was having a bit of a party and as it was my last night, i was keen to have more fun. 175 apparently takes ages to cum, and by now we had been at it for an hour an half and i was cold and thinking about 176. i told 175 i had to go to this party and he knew i had to leave for the airport in 3 hours so understood. it was a shame cause i had wanted him so much for so long. but my priorities for my last night was just to have a crazy time. so i ran out the hostel at 5am into a taxi to take me out to the suburbs to a random house to meet this other guy. when i got there he was hanging out with a mate, they were both so high. after about 2 mins he was like, erm, i think you need to be naked now. i was thinking there would be some 3some times, but he asked his mate for a blanket and hid us under there while he rubbed my pussy and made me take my clothes off. he was telling me to get his cock hard so i slid under the blanket and sucked his cock. he was so high tho it was hard to get anything out of him. he tried to fuck me, but there wasnt much to work with. i could tell normally he would have a great big cock, but all the drugs he had taken had an adverse effect. we went into the bathroom so we could try properly. he was begging me to get his cock hard and talk dirty to him. he was such a mess it just wasnt hot. i tried to a bit, but had little patience and told him i was done. he then begged me to let him play with me. he was very rough and i wasnt really enjoying it. he got on the bathroom floor and i straddled his face while he ate my pussy. he was good at that. and i enjoyed that for a while. but it was getting late. i knew i had to get home to finish packing and that was more on my mind than what he was up to down there. i told him i needed to go and that one day if im ever back in town and he isnt high then we can do this properly. we made out a bit while i waited for a taxi and rode off back to my apartment at 7am. i managed to get packed and get in a taxi in time for my flight. i was glad i had done both of my last night boys but wish either of them had been a bit more resolved.

...got walked out on

so friday night i met a dude. he was hot, in a hipster way. an aussie model. anyway, i took him back to mine and he was a little awkward. it had taken hours of us talking in the first place to make out and get him to mine anyway.  we kissed a bit and he quickly got my top and bra off. i was laying on my back and he just started jiggling my tits. it was so wierd. it was like he had never seen or touched boobs before and was exploring how they move. after doing that for a bit he stradled my chest and tried to squeeze my boobs around his cock. in the position we were in it wasnt really possible so i took him in my mouth. he had quite a good cock, good lengh and rock solid. i pushed him on his back and started my best work with mouth. but after a few minutes he pushed me up, said stop and started pulling up his shorts. he jumped off the bed saying he cant do this. he was really sorry and said he knew it was a wierd thing for a dude to do, but that he had to leave. i just lay there an told him no worries. he told me to text him the next day and he would see me then. i made a mental note to make sure i did not do that and then he walked out.  i was a lil frustrated and apart from being pretty confused, which i still am, had a good nights sleep. it might seem particularly wierd but this, as you will find out, is not the first time i have been walked out on recently.

...started internet dating again

so ive browsed my old favorite "dating" site since ive been hhere in aus but have not really felt the need or urge to follow through with any potentials. however, spending almost 2 weeks in bed pts a different outlook on things. i met 170 on the site about a week ago. i put him off the first few nights he wanted to meet as i was still a mess and not really up to it. after a failed night on fun on wednesday i decided i had to meet him on thursday night. he was going out and after i had finished on cam, first night back after the crash, i was a lil tired. i couldnt be bothered to sit and wait for him so went to bed. he called at 1.30am and woke me up. i didnt answer his first few calls cause i was a lil pissed off he left it so late. however in the end i answered. he has a really sexy voice and was trying to convince me it woul be a good idea to wake up and have him over. i was not convinced and we ended the conversation saying we will do it another night. by this point i was much more awake an after a couple of minutes thought, changed my mind and text him to tell him ill sleep when im dead and come over and fuck me. he was there within ten minutes. he wanst as cute as some of his pictures but by this point i hadnt had sex in a week an half. i didnt care. we made out a bit and pretty soon he was kneeling over my chest with his cock in my mouth while we watched in the mirror.  he was pulling on my hair and forcing his cock down my throat. his penis wasnt too big so i could take it all. he was desperate to just throw me around and fuck me hard but my foot and leg injuries were slowing me down. we ended up have fast, hard sex with my legs up on his shoulders and him kneeling up. the bed slid accross the room and my top half was hanging off the bed as he pulled his cock out of me and came all over my stomach and tits. he even got a good shot in my hair and over me onto the head board. i wiped myself up with a towel and we quickly fell asleep a he had to be up and leave in 3 hours for work.

...had bandaged sex

i am still in bed recovering from my scooter crash and just had my personal trainer over to give me a nice relaxing rub down. it took him about 2 minutes to get me out of my dress and thong, leaving me naked except for my bandages. i cant really do anything except lie on my back so he gently lifted my legs onto his shoulders and slid his fat cock into my dripping pussy. its been 4 days since i got any sex so i had been getting really horny. i played with my clit while he slid in and out of me. i moaned for him to fuck me harder and reached for my vibrator and worked it on my pussy till i exploded on his cock. then he pulled out of me and knelt over me and fucked my face till he came in my mouth. he got up, got dressed and left me in bed to nap and recover. 

...had my first orgy

i am supposed to be working right now but i cant stop thinking about last night and havent had any mates to talk to about it yet. so im gonna write it here first!

last night i had my first b/g/b/g/b orgy! i met this guy on thursday, 167 and fucked him on saturday morning. on sunday night, when i was working, two guys i had been flirting with all weekend bought a whole tray of shots off me. i sat down with them and 167 came over and joined us. they asked me if they could do them off my body if i lay on the table. after a little encouragement from 167 i agreed. they placed one shot between my legs, one between my boobs and one in my mouth and then took it in turns to do all 3. they bought 45 shots so this took a while. 167 was rubbing my pussy and one of the other guys, 168, was stroking my legs and kept kissing me every time he would do a shot out my mouth. i hung out with 167 and 168, for a bit after just chatting and kissing them both and we said we should all fuck when i finish work in an hour. they didnt know each other, but from that point they spent the next hour together waiting for me.
when i finished work 167 said he wanted me to get another girl involved. i looked around but couldnt find one i was interested in, then just as we were leaving, one of the bar girls 169, came in with 167s mate. she is the hottest girl there on any night, so i went up to the two of them and asked if they wanted to come home with me and 167 and 168. the boys were so surprised when they said yes and she was up for it. they couldnt believe their luck.

we all walked back to mine and when we got here went into the pool. we all stripped off naked and jumped in. 169 was with her guy, s, making out and i was taking it in turns kissing 167 and 168. then 169 came over to me and we kissed and she slid her hand down and started stroking my pussy. my fingers slipped straight inside her. her pussy was so smooth and wet. then she started fucking s in the pool and me and 168 did the same. he was fucking me in the middle of the pool and we worked out way over to the edge so he had me against the wall. i was watching 169 and s while 168 fucked me and 167 watched me. they stopped fucking and i kissed her and played with her pussy some more before i swam over to 167 and kissed him and started stroking his cock under the water. 168 came up behind me and kissed my neck and rubbed my pussy and started fucking me again while i was kissing and stroking the other guys cock. after doing this for a while, we decided we needed a bed and some warmth so went up to my apartment. 168 and 169 got in the shower and i got in and started kissing her and sucking on her tits. we both were kissing 168 and 167 came and got in too. 167 got on his knees and started licking my pussy while i kissed 169. when she realised s was on his own, she got out the shower and went into my bedroom with him and fucked him. i was left in the shower with the other two boys and i took it in turns, sucking and fucking them. still in the shower they took it in turns to film me getting fucked from both ends. 168 got out the shower and 167 picked me up and pinned me against the shower wall and fucked me until we collapsed onto the floor where i rode his cock under the hot water. 167 and 168 both wanted to fuck the other girl too, so we got out the shower and i went into the bedroom. 169 and s were done and left the bedroom so 167 came in and fucked me hard. he was a great fuck and so fun. after a lil while 169 and s came back in and the four of us mixed it up for a while. me and her made out and played with each others pussies, we both sucked s cock at the same time, she went down on me which was amazing and she and 167 both licked my pussy at the same time. 169 got fucked by s with her face in my pussy. then 169 rode s while i rode 167. me and the girl 69ed while 167 fucked me. i hadnt been with a girl for like two years so it was awesome to get my face between her legs. her pussy is amazing and it tasted so sweet. after doing all this for a while, me and 167 went on the balcony for a smoke and i realised 168 had left. i sucked 167s cock while he had a cigarette then we went back into the lounge where he filmed me sucking his cock and riding him. we chucked the other two out of my bed as they were falling asleep and we fucked amazingly, till the neighbours banged on the wall to get us to shut up. we made a bed for them in the lounge and 167 and i went back to bed and i sucked his cock till we both fell asleep.

this morning 167 and i had some nice morning blow jobs, fucking, cigarettes and chats, while 169 and s did the same in the next room. the boys had to check out of their room and left me and her to have a little giggle about last night before she got a cab home.

now im just sat here in a dreamy, sleepy, happy state. i should be working, but i worked quite hard last night with my first orgy.

...tried to think how to restart this blog

so i dont know how to start this blog off again! i have loads of stories recently of things i have been up to. and i have my old blog which i need to edit and post the stories up here. in the last month i have had 25 different men. im quite proud of that achievement. i have always been a fan of numbers. at the moment i seem to be so outrageously horny all the time. my pussy just starts throbbing and fucking is all i can think about.

im thinking right now, about phoning a boy to have him over. it is pouring with rain and thunder and lightning outside. i am working on my camscore, so i cant sit on cam all day and my second site is slow as. 165 is a tall, tanned, english guy. we have great banter and i like the way we fuck. i came the second time we fucked, which is rare for me. if its hot out i kinda wanna meet him at the beach and fuck him in the ocean in the rain.

ok im gonna post a few old stories from my old blog. think i will just date them when i originally posted them as it doesnt get too confusing!

...finally got the internet back

so im back from the village and online. i have written while i was away. so ill post these on the dates i wrote them. so they will be before this. never mind. so since i have been back, all of 12 hours, i have signed up to be a cam girl. i have decided i do all this way too much to not be making money from it so will have to see how that goes. im staying in on new years eve so might start then.

also i need to do some nice stories as all this numbers and me keepin track of who im seeing is more like an a-level maths problem. but as a quick note on this weeks plans. last night as soon as i got back, i saw 119. he normally comes to mine and last night i went to his. it was like some kind of progress. he is a major comittment phobe. 27 and never had a gf. not that i want that from him. its just that he is so insanely closed off and usually he leaves as soon as he cums. i know he likes me though and he is trying to spend more time with me. so when i went over last night we hung out for like 20 mins before he took me down stairs. he has been asking me how he can be better in bed and he was trying everything i had told him. having him between my thighs with his fingers hard inside me and tongue on my clit lookin up at me to see if i was liking it was so hot. he loves fucking me in the ass but he has a beautiful big cock so i cant usually take it. he took me in a way i hadnt ever done before. he had my vibe in my ass while he was fucking me with him on top then he slipped it out and stuck it in my ass. with him still on top. he held me really tight and kissed me lots as he fucked me firmly and slowly in my ass, my legs wrapped around his waist. it was so hot. it was the best way ive had anal. he slid my legs over his shoulders but he was too big in me for me to take that for long. he pulled out and dragged me down the bed by my ankles and bent me over the end of the bed and entered my ass again. he was holding me around my neck and waist and fucking me really hard now. i had my vibe on my clit and was crying out in a mixture of pleasure and pain. it was so intense. i love it when im gettin fucked and my mind just totally clears. last night was just incredible. i didnt cum but just really enjoyed how he took me.

anyway. i got carried away there. so should stop this. cause now im turned on. damn.

…started planning resolutions

i was watching an interview with miicky rourke the other day and they were talking about the time he alegidly slept with 14 women in one night. it turns out the reality was that it was 13 in 7 days. im sure i have or can beat that. 4 in one day is my record so that would only be 4 days of that. or 2 a day or a mix of a few and none and lots. so my aim for january is to beat that. i think a general new years resolution is to have more sex.

….monday bank holiday

so being away from london, away from phone signal, away from internet has got me feeling much more pensive. been thinking about exs and me and friends. i cannot get my last ex 105 out of my head. he was my last love and also the boy that locked me up for 5 days. it has never felt over with us. the first time, the second time, or now after he got back in toch the last time. maybe its cause im near his part of the country. i have to get the same train to the family as i did to his. what ever the reason him being out there, existing, living, and me not knowing about him, not able to care or help is on my mind. i have always loved having one that got away tho. i love pining.

...boxing day blogged

so it is the day after the big event. except i don’t think ours is a big event. its me, nan and mom and we just had a nice relaxing, quiet day. i got a few weird presents. like usual. which i like. when i see other people talking about their christmases on twitter and facebook i realise how different mine is. especially as i ended the day in bed, struggling to connect my computer to the wi-fi on my phone so i can check my online profile and chat to a few boys i am planning on meeting when i get back. my new excitement is f7. met him online last week. spent the day on cam when he was at work. and in his spare time he is an underwear model. so bring on wednesday.

pretty much the only people that have text me over this festive period are boys that im sleeping with or want to sleep with me. which is interesting.

78, f5, and f11, 126  wanted to meet

f8 is planning to meet up next week.

117, 122, f10, 118  said merry Christmas.

f7 nice chats and meeting plans.

f9 wanted to cam, texted, messaged me on line, called me. wants to meet.

125 wanted to cam.

119 chatted to me about how much he likes fucking me and asked what he could be better at and wanted to cam.

i have been tryin to get online all day today and i cant. its so frustrating. im writing this offline and dunno when ill get to post but im just feeling totally cut off. this village sucks. feeling a bit fucked up. sat here with the fam, blogging and watching a movie and sending messages to boys about how they want me to fuck them in the ass.

...realised i have no female friends

wednesday

girls hate me. girls who know me, who are supposed to be friends, dont go out with me. i was told last night it was cause im always with so many guys when i am out. girls i know with boyfriends dont like me cause they think im gonna sleep with their boyfriends, or think i flirt too much. girls im mates with dont think they dont have much in common with me cause im obsessed with sex and my lifestyle is so different from them. im not the kind of girl they want to be associated with. girls in clubs hate me cause of how i dance and dress. cause i dont care what people think i just do what i want. and other girls dont like that. and they are mean to me. i have very few female friends left. i prefer just hanging out with boys. but now i only hang out with people i sleep with. im having a girl crisis. girls make other girls feel so bad. i wish people didnt care about what/who i do, how i dress, how i dance, who i talk to and how. i dont. and im happy. just other people make me feel bad.

ugh enough whinge off. boring. im not goin for sympathy. just thought id show a bit more reality!

met a fit boy on line today and he has just started talking to me on msn. so that will keep me busy for a while and 117 is coming over tonight. that will be nice and fun.

...spent the night with my ex

tuesday
so i spent the night with my ex tonight. not in that way.ex 87. we spent the night talking about our relationship and why we cant have casual sex now. i feel a bit drained. it was an emotionally difficult relationship and a lot of things went wrong for us and we talked about all of it. i need a cuddle. text 119 but he hasnt replied. i seem to be in my two weeks off sex. havent had any for a week and a day. 87 wanted it, but i didnt. im meant to be meeting 117 tomorrow. but might be too busy. then im due this week too, and its christmas. so who knows when its gonna be back on.

ive set up a couple of new profiles online looking for girls for group fun and looking for someone to be my slave. i need one, i am too busy and not spoilt enough. got a few lined up in both.

massively tired now...oh 119 came over on sunday night. he is so weird and left half way through. but he has appologised and is so hot its fine. and its nice to have someone who only ever comes over for a couple of hours and leaves me to sleep well. oh and the heavenly 120, my all time number one, stunning baby boy, has text today. id love to meet him before christmas. im so obsessed with his face.

i think i need to go to bed and imagine someone wants to cuddle me.

...had christmas early

sunday
so i know i missed a few days but my dad came to mine this weekend for an early christmas. was lovely. and cause of that nothing fun has happened boy wise. im currently on skype with f6. his cock is amazing. and he just made me get in the bath and piss while i fingered my ass and pussy with rubber gloves on. would be great to actually meet him. ive only ever spoken to him on the internet. he has even worked for me and we never met. so weird. but really hot. anyway the ex 117 is texting me tonight. we are gonna meet on tuesday and play. maybe even have a bit of a date. i had a massive onslaught of texts on friday night. i couldnt meet any one cause of dad comin. same on saturday.

my period is due this week so better try and get a few people in before the christmas lul. im home till friday morning tho so ive got a bit of time. actually definately going on a date with the ex. which is hilarious. cause his girlfriend has gone home to the parents. im a nasty souless bitch. happy with it.

am very tired tonight and not feeling original.

...blogged on the loo

so today im on the toilet blogging. it is too late reallly and i wanted an early night and i didnt do anything i planned this evening. i cancelled 123 so i could have a quiet night in preparing for christmas. but instead i went to a gig and kissed another boy. came home and been chatting and texting, eating cheese and facebooking for two hours and now its 2am. chattin to f2 and 118. i have stuck to my 100% record of pulling while out at work. so happy. just had 123 texting asking if i was back on with 117. stupid 117 told him we met up the other day. what is with boys needing to tell everyone everything. jeez. 117 wants to come over now too. but im saying no. did a lil skype with f5 but i was too tired and he is a tease. the boy i snogged, f6, has been textin all night since we left the gig too. he is very cute. may see him on saturday.

woke up this morning with 122. he came over last night and we were both cold, tired and cuddly so we didnt have sex. which was nice. i slept well with him and we did it this morning. but our hearts werent in it. we lay chattin for hours and i missed all my work this morning. we talked about sex so much we ended up doing it 3 times before he left and i got on with work. 125 text again being an arse about not textin him tonight cause he would be with his gf. i mean jeez, if he told me in the first place he had a gf maybe he could be pissed off. but i didnt know better. i should be pissed off with him.

123 and 117 are still texting me and 122 is out so i suspect he will call later. but its phone on silent time now.

...got let down

tuesday
today was tuesday. i woke up late cause last night i was up late chatting to boys on line! 122 was meant to come over but he dissapeared. so i entertained myself with thai food, tv and chat. boring end to what started as a promising day. today has also been a bit dry. was gonna go see f1 again but a meeting got canceled so couldnt justify being in that part of town. so i had 3 hours to kill. i tried 119, 120, 122 and 125 and none of them were free. gutted. so i had to please myself with 66 on skype. 66 was someone i was sleeping with for two years. but he got married and we havent hooked up in 2 years. his marriage is not workin out any more, so he is back on me. after some work tonight 122 texted and wants to hang. so i am just waiting for him bringing dvds and good times. cant wait to feel his powerful hands on me. woop. bit tired tho. oh and i nearly forgot. when i was gettin the bus home just, who should walk up but 111 and his gf. they are back together. she confronted me the other week when we were out and tried to start something but i held it down and she ended up walking off. at the bus stop just, she walked up to me stared, wide eyed and walked off. my heart was racing and thank fuck we got different busses.

...wrote about today

TODAYS LIFESPIRATION



so after the drama of the weekend. it has been catching up a bit today. me and 117 chatted this morning and he told me he doesnt like his gf any more and has been broken since me and is sleeping with another girl too, but cant leave his gf cause its christmas. also said he has a really public relationship with her to make me jell. what a dick. but pretty funny. he left at like 12 to go to work. my best friend called me and told me this skank girl he'd been hangin with last night told her i had been trying to fuck another of their mates f3 and that i was being ridiculous and to leave their group of friends alone. it is pretty funny, 89, 117, 123, f1 and f3 are all like best friends. 123 has been texting me about the situation and asking to see me in secret again. we are gonna meet on wednesday. 120 has been texting again too. he is definitely my hottest boy at the moment. so glad to hear from him. need to see him asap. 122 text as well to apologise for having to go home. and we are making plans for the week. also talking to n1 and n2 and lots of other people on the net. but i think i might have a night in on my own today. catch up on sleep, get work done and give the lady a rest. let see how all this plays out.

ps i have been thinking about this as my diary and it is definately the best idea cause i cant really tell anyone all this any more. no one understands and its all a bit insane. also no one can know im fucking thier friends boyfriends or my exs friends or a friend or whatever. like new format. happy. now someone read this. think its amazing and give me a job reviewing men.

...started having sex with too many people to keep a track of

the past few weeks i have been sleeping with more people than ever. i am also meeting more people than ever, off the internet and in real life. so i have decided to use this blog to keep up to date with what i have going on. i havent been able to write much, anywhere near as much as i would like, on here cause i am so busy with work, so i wanna try and use this as a bit more of a diary. i litterally cant remember who i had sex with this time last week.

i have also been racking my brains as to how i can turn the amount of people i sleep with into a money making business. yes i know what comes to mind first, but a large part of what i do is find good people to have sex with. i dont want to be the one picked for sex, i want to still be the one in control and some how earn money. also the sex wouldnt be like it is if the boys were paying. so i need an external way of making money from this.

anyway i am going to be referring to each person by their number now. i also need a way of keeping track of who i am planning to meet and who i am liking off the interweb, but it might evolve naturally.

so this weekend -
friday night - i had a good sleep after a hard days work.

saturday - did a bit of tidyin an some nice stuff in my flat. went out to my old local on my own to meet f1, and bumped into my exs friends. saw f1 but he failed again to get away from his friends to see me. (we arent supposed to hook up). spent the night talking to 123. hes been tryin to get with me for a few weeks and is my exs best friend. he is really nice and we got on well and kissed really well so i couldnt really say no. we went back to mine, but i had to go out to do some work at 3am and wanted to meet 122 after so i made him leave. it wasnt great anyway. while i was out working i met f2 and kissed him. he wants to take me on a date. then i met 124. he kissed me, badly, but got really turned on and into me and 122 was gonna come over on sunday anyway so i let 124 take me home. he was some american guy. and had an incredible cock. and definately satisfied me. he stayed over.

sunday - 124 woke me up at like 8am to have more sex and then left at like 10am. which was good, cause i didnt really wanna hang out with him. i was really looking forward to 122 coming over. which he did at 2pm. we had a couple of rounds of awesome sex. i usually get bored of long sex but with him it just feels amazing and i loose my mind to him. he really knows how to handle me and hold me too. also we eat chips and chocolate and snooze on the sofa together watching movies. and he is a sex addict too. he unfortunately had to leave at like 8 to look after his dad. he was meant to stay so that was rubbish. but in some twist of fate, just as i was gettin bored, my ex 117, called me off 123s phone to tell me he knew about us. i was busy watching x factor so didnt wanna talk to him. he txt me later saying "you fucked my best mate". he actually has a girlfriend now, who is an old friend of mine, ridiculous. so i said it shouldnt matter. in the end i phoned him and he said he missed me etc. so i told him to come over. he was out so had to go but we carried on textin each other and he left straight away and came over. i thought he might wanna talk or something, but as soon as we walked in we started kissing and he took me in my room and we fucked all night.

busy weekend and think that made it 4 in 24 hours. my new record!

...took someone's virginity

well actually i didnt just take one boys virginity. as far as i know, it has been two. one was a little boy who was 17 when i was 22. due to too much booze i dont remember what happened or how it was, but i did think he was mysterious an exciting. i went out on my own that night and made friends with this group of 4 boys that i was teasing for being so young. one put in loads of work with me, trying to get with me and another sat moodily away from us and didnt speak to me all night, until he just came up to me and said to leave with him, now. he was very beautiful and now he is some kind of uber successful male model, which is cool. but being lectured at 9am about how an arts degree is pointless and how learning a real job, like finance is more important, by someone still doing their A levels. then being told all about Jew Camp. then having to walk him to the train station in the rain cause he couldnt figure out my directions, kind of took a shine off him. it wasnt until more recently that i found out that that memorable night was his first time.

the other cherry i popped was a when i was 23. he was 23 too. not sure how he got that far in life like that. and why he ended up with me. we were seeing each other for a little while then he sort of disappeared. well i think thats what happened. anyway he is a really successful photographer now. so that is a good track record for creating beauty and genius by taking virginities. cause im sure banging me first is the reason they are now successful.

...had birthday fun

it was my 19th birthday at a club in my home town, when it turned midnight, onto my actual birthday i decided i wanted to celebrate with some sex. i walked to the toilets and found the cutest boy nearby. i walked up to him, took his hand, and without saying anything, i took him into the girls toilets and fucked him. i told him i would be wanting more of that and that i would come and find him later. he was only about 17 and too scared to say anything. i found him and fucked him two more times that night and i didnt say another word to him the whole time. i never knew his name and wouldnt recognise him, even if he spoke to me. but it was a great start to my birthday.

...started using internet dating sites

i dont know why i did it, or what prompted me to start on it, but i know i wanted to push my sexual boundaries and expand my potential horizons. so one night at the end of july i signed up to an online "dating" site. within 5 minutes of being on the site i had already received 20 messages from guys wanting to talk to me, meet me, or go on cam with me. they all told me how stunning they thought i was and how much they wanted me. it didnt take long, i was hooked. sometimes all it took was a glance at their profile pics to tell me to steer clear, but there were defiantly more than one or two guys who took my fancy. i found myself logging in more and more, checking to see if any hot guys had messaged me. a few times i swapped msn details and spent my nights in doing everything you can imagine on camera, with them doing the same. i really got on well with two of the guys. one lives about 15 mins away, so after having msned a few times, we text all week, and then after the most important step, swapping our real facebook details, he came over. it was pretty relaxed, we watched a movie and talked all the way through and didnt even get to the end before we were in my bedroom fucking. he was really fun and has the really awesome ability to stay hard, no matter how many times he cums. this ensured i was fully satisfied. he stayed over and we did it more that night and in the morning. and that sealed the deal with internet dating sites. they work for me! 

the second guy i really got on with was not such a positive experience. a sniper in the army, who after sending 400 texts over 3 days, i was determined to know even more about him. i found him on facebook but what i didnt expect to find at the same time, was his wife and kid. he reassured me he was separated, which from her statues about missing him so much, i knew wasnt true. but i liked the attention he was giving me. after a month of constant texts and calls, that by then, i wasnt so excited to receive and often ignored, he informed me he would be back in the country soon and the first thing he would do was come and see me. living in ireland with his wife and kid i doubted this. but he stuck to his word and we met up. he was so hot in his pictures and really into me and i couldnt have been more disappointed. he was not hot, short, edgy, awkward and i had no idea why he was even there. we spent the night watching shit tv and eating pizza. i couldnt bring myself to go out in public with him and his boot-cut jeans. i did end up fucking him, but it was so boring and long. i was so glad when he left the next day. despite him trying to get in touch since, i have not replied and thank god he hasnt been too persistent.

despite this painful experience i knew there was more fun to be had. i met a guy through a mutual friend on facebook and when he came over it was incredible. he was really hot, really good in bed and really fun. he would make a perfect regular but unfortunately he doesnt live in my town so i just have to wait till he comes back on another trip here. since him i have accepted adds on my facebook from a couple of hot guys that i havent met but have friends in common with, so have a couple more lined up. but again, location is a hurdle with them. for now though there is always skype.

i was asked to write a little article on my experiences of the best places to find sex online. someone told me the most popular "dating" site, so in the name of research i signed up. this has taken my addiction to another level. that was a week and a half ago and since then i have received 1212 messages from guys who want me. i check the site constantly and when i am not out i spend my nights finding new people to chat too. i have swapped a lot of pics and done a lot of chatting but the sheer amount of people getting in touch means i am getting to be really picky. i have unfortunately found one guy who is perfect and we are so into each other. he is exactly my type and me his. we have chatted for hours and been texting each other. but he lives in scotland. so rubbish. 

i keep trying to use these sites to push my boundaries and hook up with guys i wouldnt usually, but id rather be safe than sorry, so i do take my time to get to know guys first. even the slightest sign of pestering and they are off my potentials list and i make sure i have checked out their real facebooks before i would meet them. obviously there arent hundreds of hot guys out there on these sites but when you do find someone you know they are going to have a like minded attitude to sex and be really open to experimentation. it  has added a new dimension to my sexploits and hopefully will provide me with plenty more stories.

...had a boyfriend holiday

this week i have discovered a brand new and exciting experience that i have thought would be a good idea. and worked really well. i had a boyfriend holiday. i was away at a festival the other weekend and met a boy there on the first night. we had some amazing tent sex and he did things to me that no one should do in a tent. it was really fun and he knew how to wind me up and turn me on in equal amounts. i moved to a different site in the morning an he asked me to take his number before i left. we texted and called each other for the rest of the weekend and we arranged for him to come to mine when he was finished working.

he got back on monday afternoon and i met him at the tube station and brought him straight home to mine. he collapsed tired and hungry on my living room floor and he pulled me down and lay there making out for a while. i put him in the shower and ordered us some curry. we then spent the rest of the night eating, watching movies and fucking. in the morning i got up and made coffee and pancakes and then we spent the whole day doing the same again, eating, watching tv and fucking. it felt like we had been doing this for months and it was totally normal that we were holding hands and kissing and generally being wrapped around each other. that night he went out with his mates and then came home to me, where id ordered a pizza and gave him blow jobs on the sofa. he was going to leave on the wednesday night as i was going to go out. but when it got to about 8pm we decided another night in with food and fucking would be much more fun.

we talked about how and why this wierd little boring married life we were having was working. we are both really similar in our feelings and attitudes to sex and know that just cause we were acting like this, didnt mean we wanted to be together or do this any longer than we were. we liked the comfort and cosy funness of this gf/bf time but didnt want any more from each other. so when it came time for him to leave on the thursday we said our goodbyes and that we may see each other soon. since then we havent called or text each other. i think we both got everything we needed from our 4 days together and rather then being led on or leading someone on after one night of fake fun, our concious decision to take a boyfriend/girlfriend holiday has left me feeling all warm and satisfied inside.